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F or the last 1.5 years, I have been struggling to come out of depression. It is
difficult for me to focus on anything. I lost 10–12 kgs in the last six months. I
was in a relationship with a guy for 1.5 years. One day, he called me to tell me
that he is getting married. My world crumbled down that day. We had thought
a lot about us being together throughout our life. His family pressurised him a
lot and at the end, he took the decision to marry someone else. Since we are
from different castes, his family wasn‘t ready.
Every day since then has been like hell for me. I can‘t sleep the whole night
and even if I sleep, it is difficult for me to wake up because those thoughts
haunt me. He loved me a lot but society isn‘t willing to let us be together. I am
in a vicious circle. I can‘t see any way out of it. My only mistake in life is that I
am from a lower caste. I hope Indian society changes one day.
-Nishita
I gave my medical entrance exam in 2013 and that day was a really
dangerous day for me. I was so nervous. My mummy and papa were crying. I
qualified in the all-India entrance exam, but my rank was not good enough
and I was very depressed. I didn‘t get a seat even in my state. It was very
depressing for me since I had studied hard. I used to think that my mummy
and papa are spending so much money on me and I am giving nothing back to
them.
I tried to commit suicide and I didn‘t talk to anyone about it. I thought I
should just end my life now. But a few days later, my papa‘s phone rang and it
was a message from my college. I had secured admission for the dental surgery
course. I was so happy. My papa was literally dancing. That day was awesome.
I‘m very happy with my parents because they have never discouraged me in
life.
-Barsha
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difficult for me to focus on anything. I lost 10–12 kgs in the last six months. I
was in a relationship with a guy for 1.5 years. One day, he called me to tell me
that he is getting married. My world crumbled down that day. We had thought
a lot about us being together throughout our life. His family pressurised him a
lot and at the end, he took the decision to marry someone else. Since we are
from different castes, his family wasn‘t ready.
Every day since then has been like hell for me. I can‘t sleep the whole night
and even if I sleep, it is difficult for me to wake up because those thoughts
haunt me. He loved me a lot but society isn‘t willing to let us be together. I am
in a vicious circle. I can‘t see any way out of it. My only mistake in life is that I
am from a lower caste. I hope Indian society changes one day.
-Nishita
I gave my medical entrance exam in 2013 and that day was a really
dangerous day for me. I was so nervous. My mummy and papa were crying. I
qualified in the all-India entrance exam, but my rank was not good enough
and I was very depressed. I didn‘t get a seat even in my state. It was very
depressing for me since I had studied hard. I used to think that my mummy
and papa are spending so much money on me and I am giving nothing back to
them.
I tried to commit suicide and I didn‘t talk to anyone about it. I thought I
should just end my life now. But a few days later, my papa‘s phone rang and it
was a message from my college. I had secured admission for the dental surgery
course. I was so happy. My papa was literally dancing. That day was awesome.
I‘m very happy with my parents because they have never discouraged me in
life.
-Barsha
30
