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I work with an MNC in Mumbai. At 16, my sister told me that I would never
get my period as I don‘t have a uterus. At that moment, my heart tore into
pieces and I started crying like hell. My mother consoled me. But I got to know
that it was difficult to live a normal life, difficult to get married and most
importantly, having the baby that I have dreamed about since childhood
would no more be possible.
At the age of 22, I started having body pain, especially in my lower back. I
couldn‘t concentrate on my studies, but somehow I managed to get admission
for an MBA in Bangalore. The real struggles began from there. Far from my
family, I found myself very alone. I found it very difficult to hide my absent
period from my hostelmates. I preferred staying in a single occupancy room.
I had to compromise on having a social life. Some people considered me
arrogant; some felt I was like a granny.
Consequently, people started ignoring me. Even though society didn‘t know
about my condition, I felt very inferior, depressed and rejected. People don‘t
value a single or unmarried woman. I know that people will look at me with a
question if I am unmarried after a few years. They will start questioning me
about why I am not in any relationship. I get scared when I think of such
situations. I really don‘t know what my future will bring for me. I can only
pray that God sends someone understanding to my life who loves me and
accepts me as I am.
In the midst of my fears, uncertainties and insecurity, I have decided to adopt
a child whether I get married or not. I will pour all my love on my baby. And I
know one smile of my baby will bring thousands of smiles on my face.
-Purbi
I n our society, people are okay (sympathetic) if one gets any physical disease
like cancer, diabetes, etc. But when a person is suffering from stress,
depression or any other mental illness, people simply ostracise them, thinking
them to be bad or unwanted. Even I am going through mild depression due to
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get my period as I don‘t have a uterus. At that moment, my heart tore into
pieces and I started crying like hell. My mother consoled me. But I got to know
that it was difficult to live a normal life, difficult to get married and most
importantly, having the baby that I have dreamed about since childhood
would no more be possible.
At the age of 22, I started having body pain, especially in my lower back. I
couldn‘t concentrate on my studies, but somehow I managed to get admission
for an MBA in Bangalore. The real struggles began from there. Far from my
family, I found myself very alone. I found it very difficult to hide my absent
period from my hostelmates. I preferred staying in a single occupancy room.
I had to compromise on having a social life. Some people considered me
arrogant; some felt I was like a granny.
Consequently, people started ignoring me. Even though society didn‘t know
about my condition, I felt very inferior, depressed and rejected. People don‘t
value a single or unmarried woman. I know that people will look at me with a
question if I am unmarried after a few years. They will start questioning me
about why I am not in any relationship. I get scared when I think of such
situations. I really don‘t know what my future will bring for me. I can only
pray that God sends someone understanding to my life who loves me and
accepts me as I am.
In the midst of my fears, uncertainties and insecurity, I have decided to adopt
a child whether I get married or not. I will pour all my love on my baby. And I
know one smile of my baby will bring thousands of smiles on my face.
-Purbi
I n our society, people are okay (sympathetic) if one gets any physical disease
like cancer, diabetes, etc. But when a person is suffering from stress,
depression or any other mental illness, people simply ostracise them, thinking
them to be bad or unwanted. Even I am going through mild depression due to
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