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I am a male and was sexually abused by my elder brother when I was 11 years
old. He would slip into my bed and thinking that I was sleeping, he would kiss me
all over. While this would go on, my body would freeze. It went on for a year and
stopped when I hinted that I was awake.
Now, 18 years later, the memories of these events came back to me and I was in
deep depression for a few months. I am able to work but I still struggle due to the
after-effects of my abuse. I have had every kind of addiction: smoking, alcohol,
excessive running, marijuana, porn, etc. I was able to beat some of these addictions
but the struggle goes on. The life of a sexual abuse survivor is not easy. I am
successful professionally, but at an emotional or personal level, I am a failure.
I am 30 years old now and have never been in a relationship. It is very dificult to
trust anyone. But now, I have the tools to start my recovery and hopefully, I will
heal soon. It all started with one thing: BREAKING THE SILENCE. If you have
been abused, please break your silence. I can’t remember one moment bigger than
breaking the silence for my healing. Find someone who cares for you—a good
friend, spouse or anyone else—and just break the silence.
-Aditya
I was sexually abused from a very young age by one of my family members. For
many years, I didn’t understand what was happening and
I was scared to tell anyone because I was ashamed.
I was also concerned about whether anyone would
believe me or not. Today, I am 29 years old and
I am still just as traumatised and disgusted by
my past as I was then. I have had depression for as
long as I can remember, mostly contributed by my
tough childhood.
-Kanta
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old. He would slip into my bed and thinking that I was sleeping, he would kiss me
all over. While this would go on, my body would freeze. It went on for a year and
stopped when I hinted that I was awake.
Now, 18 years later, the memories of these events came back to me and I was in
deep depression for a few months. I am able to work but I still struggle due to the
after-effects of my abuse. I have had every kind of addiction: smoking, alcohol,
excessive running, marijuana, porn, etc. I was able to beat some of these addictions
but the struggle goes on. The life of a sexual abuse survivor is not easy. I am
successful professionally, but at an emotional or personal level, I am a failure.
I am 30 years old now and have never been in a relationship. It is very dificult to
trust anyone. But now, I have the tools to start my recovery and hopefully, I will
heal soon. It all started with one thing: BREAKING THE SILENCE. If you have
been abused, please break your silence. I can’t remember one moment bigger than
breaking the silence for my healing. Find someone who cares for you—a good
friend, spouse or anyone else—and just break the silence.
-Aditya
I was sexually abused from a very young age by one of my family members. For
many years, I didn’t understand what was happening and
I was scared to tell anyone because I was ashamed.
I was also concerned about whether anyone would
believe me or not. Today, I am 29 years old and
I am still just as traumatised and disgusted by
my past as I was then. I have had depression for as
long as I can remember, mostly contributed by my
tough childhood.
-Kanta
CHUPPI TODO! | 46
